I’m on the road to nowhere

Distracted, but aware

Needing but notwanting

Needing but notwantingtowant

 

I felt, hoped, prayed that we, youI shared the distracted awareness

You heard my need, my not-want, and my wanting to not-want

 

But you are strong, resolute, committed

Did I say strong?

 

You make your heart stiff like the steel like your body already is

you turn away from me,

you turn to your commitment, your resolution, your strength

 

I am here and watch you there

I cherish and commend you there

Ilove again and Ilove some more

 

And I covet yourstrength

I envy your notmissing

 

‘Who is he?’ they ask

And I answer –

he

is

my

air,

myfood, mywater, mythought, myheartbeat, mysunlight, myrain, myrivers, myocean, myfear, myhope, myyesterday, mytomorrow, myzenith, mynadir, mybirth, mydenouement, myphoenixrise and secondchance, myfriend, myfamily, myfirst, mylast

 

He is myself

 

Yet this self, this complement/compliment

of myself

as my aspect

as myself,

my north ern hemisphere

my south ern hemisphere

my other/same self

 

This self that can continue without me, this you is not me

 

As we eachself/otherself step to the departure,

you see the road to continuance

And I see the road to nowhere